It’s four in the morning
as you release me from your arms
And return to a world where I exist unspoken,
intertwined in the truth of our Lies and texts.

you play your role so well to that other, I wish I was.
You play your role well, to the one who holds what I wish I had.
You play your role oh so well
in that dimension I should be part of, but I’m not.

I have no right to complain, or cry.
From that first forbidden kiss-crossing that line- to last night as you kissed my neck
and I forgot where I stood; me the other chick.
I begin to feel the weight of reality closing its pages on me.

I should get up and leave, never be your stepping stone
but i am green with envy.

She gets the privilege of her name being spoken
she’s unhidden and she’s in your bed.
The bed I’ve never slept in.
You proudly drop her off in the morning
And slyly pick me up at twilight
I wait impatiently hidden in the shadows,
prisoner to our late night texts
To the way you hold me
Prisoner to you
Prisoner to me

You love her.
You fuck me.
I love you

When you call on me,
I know you wish these arms were hers.

My fiction won’t ever become reality.

Hey!

I was browsing yahoo news today, (although it is 11:35 and technically i am in my Intro to Computers class ( bad bad bad Emmanuelle tsk tsk tsk ) when i saw the main article posted : ” Baggy pants ban “unconstitutional”, rules US judge. Today’s blog is a personal note…or rant, call it however you want.

 I’ve always hated, and i must emphasize on the word HATED saggy, baggy, jeans that men would shrugg off and classify as “comfortable”. Not because of the prejudices it easily brings in the mind, or because of the lack of taste or class it sparks but because it simple makes you all walk like chimps!

 Why can’t a man wear something classy,comfortable and in style without having   to expose his buttox, underwear or butt “crack” to me? it’s enough that what they call a “swagger” (AKA the fact that the inseam of their jeans falls down on their knees) makes them dwaddle around like ducks and penguins! i’m sorry guys, but to be guttly honest wearing these jeans make you look like you went on an emergency fad diet and ran out of clothes that fit you.

Women are definitely not interested in seeing your buttcheeks while you’re walking or bending down, neither are we interested in the color or brand of boxers you are wearing today! having your belt right under your butt AKA wearing your pants “half-mast” only makes you look like you’re muffin toped…and that is just the opinion of a blogging 18 year old girl.

The article stated

MIAMI (AFP) - A Florida judge has deemed unconstitutional a law banning baggy pants that show off the wearer’s underwear, local media reported Tuesday.

A 17-year-old spent a night in jail last week after police arrested him for wearing low pants in Riviera Beach, southeast Florida.

The law banning so-called “saggy pants” was approved by city voters in March after supporters of the bill collected nearly 5,000 signatures to put the measure on the ballot.

The teen would have received a 150 dollars fine or community service, but he spent the night in jail due to a history of marijuana use, the Palm Beach Post newspaper said.

“Somebody help me,” said Palm Beach Circuit Judge Paul Moyle, before giving his decision.

“We’re not talking about exposure of buttocks. No! We’re talking about someone who has on pants whose underwear are apparently visible to a police officer who then makes an arrest and the basis is he’s then held overnight, no bond.”

“Your honor, we now have the fashion police,” added public defender Carol Bickerstaff, who asked the law be declared “unconstitutional.”

The judge agreed with Bickerstaff immediately, reported the Post.

Laws that ban low-slung pants are on the books in several US cities, including Delcambre, Louisiana, where offenders can be fined up to 500 dollars or jailed for up to six months.

Dallas, Texas and Atlanta, Georgia are among the larger US cities considering similar measures.

I am a huge and complete supporter of this new law. http://news.yahoo.com/s/afp/20080916/od_afp/usfashionjusticeoffbeat

Your thoughts?

Dear Readers!

 

Barry University seems to be taking the most of me. Since summer has been over, i’ve been very busy. The kind of busy where you need 8 red bulls and good friends.

 

I’ve been writting, just not posting

 

Bear with me

 

Mucho Loving!

 

Emmanuelle

My dim light, offered no comfort last night

As my pen scratched angrily against the rough paper

I live in a Sugar-less world

Reality is bitter

And every wing is clipped

The beds are empty,

The minds are scared

And the hearts are cold

Awakened

I pacify my emotions.

My hair looks like a hay stack,

My night gown is falling off one shoulder

My nails are stained blue with Ink

But I like it.

Standing before the mirror

My reflection is the only witness to life’s mocking reality

“Well, good morning sweetheart

Don’t you look like shit”

That’s what the glass whispers vehemently

The day takes too long

In the doldrums,

The rain taps on my roof

Like a symphony of sounds

Beads scattering against tile

Like a sad song

A violin of sorrow

My pen scratches idly

My candle flickers…

Was I given a paintbrush

I’d paint the world colors it shouldn’t be

Because my eyes prematurely opened

To it’s black and white reality

The best moments of our life

Are our tears, heartbreaks and smiles

The sunsets, the sunshines

The truly undefined

And kindly unspoken moments

Our inconvenient truths are hidden

Carefully in a black trash bag

Standing out in a room of white

A humming bird once told me

my spirit, lulled of the tortures

Would never be free

Of the scarlet letter branded unto me.

Every man that has seen me

Every man that has loved me

Every man that has touched me

Was he ecstasy for a minute?

Or regret for a lifetime?

My hopes,

my dreams,

The joy of a hug,

the thrill of a kiss,

my ignorance of pure, simple bliss.

Is something to burn.

I’ve never had the best of the worlds

I’ve never had ever, ever, after

My beauty’s a pest

My body’s a curse

My mind’s haunted by regret

And a thirst for respect

The respect I never thought of

when my head hit a pillow

When my body was a wonderland

The love and respect I demand now.

I cry for fun,

and giggle for pain,

Today I cry

Tomorrow I dream

Tonight, I live.

In my sugar-less world.

It has never felt so good

To mix tears and rain

Blood and Ink

Hello there!

I’m dead beat tired. Yours Truly went to bed yesterday at 6 AM only to wake up at 8 and drive my Father to the Airport. I’m up, and i can’t go back to sleep. I am not in the mood to do anything but paint and blast music
so i’m doing a mural in my room
Mucho loving

And here’s my playlist

1. Do you know By Enrique Iglesias
2. Adagio for Strings played by the Milwaukee Symphony Orchestra
3. Again by Lenny Kravitz
4. Always be my Baby by Mariah Carey
5. Bed of Lies by Matchbox 20
6. Baby it’s a fact by HelloGoodbye
7. If i never see your face again by Maroon 5 feat Rihanna
8. Can’t take my eyes off of you by Lauryn Hill
9. Bad Day by Daniel Powter
10. Cold Cold Heart by Nora Jones
11. Dear Jamie…Sincerely Me by HelloGoodbye
12. I’m yours Jason Mraz
13.Say by John mayer
14. Elysian Fields by Casey Frazier
15. Everything by LifeHouse
16. Home By Michael Buble
17. You look Wonderful tonight by Michael Buble
18. Claire De Lune by Claude Debussy
19. Lloro Por ti By Enrique Iglesias
20. Iris By Goo Goo Dolls
21. Shake it by MetroStation
22. I Write Sins not Tragedies by Panic at the Disco!
23. Les Rois Du Monde by Romeo and juliette the french Musical
24. Om-Mani-Padme-Hum Chant by Buddhist Monks recorded last year
25. In Another Life by The Veronicas
26. She’s by Ryan Cabrera
27. 7 things by Miley Cirus
28. What a Wonderful world by Louis Armstrong
29. River Flows in you by Yurima
30. Silhouettes in Sunsets by Feltbeats (a pretty talented young man)

I recommend Silhouettes in Sunsets, you will find yourself humming along as paint splashes on your old, worn out jeans. It’ s Available on ITunes
This is the official Website : www.feltbeats.co.uk
or www.feltbeats.com
or look him up on Youtube “feltbeats”

Toodles!